get a job

So this is what, my third post for the month? I would have written more, but I was not sure that anyone would want to read about me feeling sorry for myself. Since moving up here March has been the hardest month for me so far. I found out two weeks ago that my contract work would be coming to an end leaving me unemployed. UNEMPLOYED. I have never been unemployed. I have always ended a job on a Friday and a new job the following Monday. I am trying to play the cool customer about the not having a job situation, while inside I am a fucking mess. Boyfriend saw the cracks and has witnessed me break. He is sweet and tries to reassure me that everything is going to work out. That may be, but in my head I don't quite believe it. I am freaked out. The thing I don't get is how the cost of living up here is so much more than it was in Colorado yet most jobs up here do not reflect that in the pay. I have looked into several jobs that start at half of what I am making now. I don't know how people are making ends meet. I have had several friends tell me to take advantage of this time to find out what it is I really want to do. At this point I just want to be able to pay my bills. But if you hear of any photographer cowgirl jobs send them my way...I would like to apply.