Let it snow

It snowed again last night. There is something so peaceful about waking up to a fresh blanket of fluffy white snow. Everything seems quieter, softer and crisp. As much as I am not a huge fan of snow...I think I am going to miss it. Not the everyday snow like we have gotten the last two nights. I am going to miss the blizzards that we get every couple of years, the ones that shut the town down and you stay inside and watch movies all day. Now I know it snows on occasion in Seattle, but is has nothing on the snow we get here in Denver.

My stuff is gone

I had a bit of a freak out about the move this week...well maybe it was more of a full blown panic attack. I was this close to pulling the plug on my moving to Seattle with Boyfriend. While talking me down Jenn made the point that I have this nasty habit of sabotaging a situation when I get scared. It is easy for me to say I am going to do something, but is quite another when I actually have to put my money where my mouth is. It still has not hit me that one month from today I will be moving away from everything I know. Boyfriend left for Seattle with all of our stuff this morning. I guess this is something I am really going through with. It is not like I could back out now...it would be too much of a pain in the ass to get all my stuff back.

Stupid Girl

I did something incredibly stupid today…I am talking really stupid. It is not something that I have done before and I am not sure why I did it today. I am not going to go into details about what I did because I don’t think I could handle the collective groan of disprovable that would surely escape readers. I guess the only reason I am writing about it at all is to in a way purge my soul of the act of stupidity. Somehow being extremely vague about it on the internet has made me feel better.

A letter of recommendation

Over the course of the four years I worked for my former boss Brian our relationship developed into more than just an employer / employee relationship. We became friends and he and his wife Robin welcomed me into their family. So when I asked Brian to write me a a letter of recommendation to help in my job search in Seattle I knew he would come through for me. And let me tell you he knocked it out of the park... To whom it may concern: Melinda worked for me on and off for a long time. She sort of quits a lot, but sometimes she does come back. Then sometimes she gets a job and will move shortly thereafter and quit. Other than that she definitely is scared of clowns. I would certainly recommend Melinda. Sometimes she has a positive personality and she is a good dancer. She is also tops when it comes to making birthday and greeting cards. It should be noted that Melinda has a pretty big cans as well! Sincerely, Brian X President Company Where I Used to Work

In the Meantime

I have a couple of go to songs that I latch on to when feeling out of sorts. This one is in heavy rotation right now. I don't know what it is but something about it makes me feel all floaty...I like feeling floaty.

They know best...

I have several people in my life who have taken it upon themselves to remind me constantly that they think that me moving out to Seattle with Boyfriend without a ring on my finger is a mistake. That I need to be protecting myself with some kind of guarantee. I had a ring on my finger once before...that was a guarantee right? Riiiiigggggghhhhhhhtttt. My mom commented to me last night that I was making a commitment to a man who was not making a commitment to me. After the day I had and after all the unsolicited advice I had gotten I just about lost my shit hearing those words. For fucks sake...I know I am taking a risk here. I don't need to be constantly reminded of it. I understand where all the advice givers are coming from don't get me wrong. It is pretty sad that the only person to be 100% behind me on this being a good move is my ex husband. Would it be smarter for me to not move out there until I found a job, had my own place and was able to support myself? Well...yes it would be. I know as a smart woman that those are ducks that I should have in a row. But on the other hand is there not something to be said for walking up to the edge and throwing yourself off having the faith that everything will work out okay? I have to say that there is because in the end there are no guarantees.

Less than 3 weeks from now

So I should be packing and carting things over to Boyfriend's house. I have my personal effects spread among 3 households. Somethings are at Boyfriend's, most things are in my ex husband's basement and my clothes and books are were I am living now. I am sure that Boyfriend has no idea just how much stuff I really have. The thought of getting everything I own into one place seems like an overwhelming task. I need to get my rear in gear though as Boyfriend is going to be moving all of our crap up north in 3 weeks. It turns out I am too lazy for that. I think this is a task best left for the last minute. That way I have an excuse to be an even bigger basket case about this move.

President Obama

Words I never thought that I would get the chance to utter. They just announced on NBC that Barack Obama won Florida passing the 270 electoral votes needed to take the presidency. I am proud of my fellow Americans this night, you have proved far more progressive than I had been giving you credit for. We now all need to have the faith that this is the change that America needs. Congratulations President Obama, may you prove the doubters wrong.

Get out and Vote

Make sure you Vote today. There is so much at stake for our country. Your voice is important so make sure it is heard.

A new place to call home

Boyfriend flew up to Seattle to last night to get things rolling at the new office and find us a place to live. We spent most of this past Saturday packing and scouring the web for apartments. We have found a few options that are looking pretty good. From what I have been told most people are priced out of the housing market so apartments go fast. I am hoping that he is able to find something nice, which I am sure he will because he does not want to live in a crap hole anymore than I do. Going back to apartment life is going to be a big adjustment for both of us…and actually living together is going to be an even bigger one.

Witchstock 2008

Last night was the Ripley's annual Halloween party, Witchstock. Every year they come up with a different theme, this years being current events/issues. Our Hosts Brian and Robin as Tony Romo & Jessica Simpson There was a great mix of people there and so many creative costume ideas. There was Sarah Palin, Crazy McCain rally lady and all manor of political references. There were two Amy Winehouse and Blake Civil-Fielder couples and both pulled it off really well. Hands down my favorite costume was of the West Texas Mormon Fundamentalists, which consisted of a husband and two sister wives. They had the dress and hair perfect. I wish I would have taken more photos of all the costumes, but I was too busy drinking beer. Jeff and Nicole as Celebrity mug shots Boyfriend and I dressed as a Mexican and a ICE agent and went as Illegal immigration. It was a costume that were threw together in about 20 minutes for about $20. I am glad that Boyfriend has a sense of humor and was willing to go along with it. It was a great party and it was really good to see everyone. It made me a bit sad to think that this is the last Witchstock we are going to be at. It makes me think that we will have to start our own Halloween tradition up in Seattle.